Recalculating

By February 8, 2012Cancer & Faith

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This post is written by Cindy Hamilton as she shares her cancer journey with our readers.

Two years ago, I flew from Arkansas to Massachusetts to attend a “silent retreat” at the St. Joseph Retreat Center in Cohasset, MA.  The entire eight days was devoted to silence, prayer, and just being with God.  It was so easy.  At the end of my week, my husband (a pilot) and I decided that I would rent a car, drive from Cohasset to New York, and catch a flight home to Arkansas with him.  I was game.  In the rental was a simple  GPS system that would help me find Preston. He told me that I would be fine as long as I didn’t go over the bridge and end up in New York City. The trip went well with only a few “recalculations”.  That is until I approached New York City.  Looking at the map, I thought that I could “wing” it and not listening to the GPS, made a wrong and crucial turn. The woman’s voice got more and more demanding with her “recalculating, recalculating”!  It looked like I was going entirely in the wrong direction.  I knew I’d really messed up when I passed by the Bronx Zoo.  Uh, oh, I was in trouble.  It was 5:00 in the evening, and I found myself right in the middle of rush hour traffic in New York City.  As a small town girl (pop. 4,000), I admit to a slight………let me be honest and say……huge feeling of panic!  Taking a deep breath, I prayed that God would get me out of there.  Knowing that God and the GPS knew exactly where I was, I focused on taking the right turns, trusting with a blind faith that I could make my way through the maze of streets.  And it was a maze!  The GPS usually takes the shortest route, so I turned down side streets and one that even looked like an alley!  At one time, I was stopped underneath the Lincoln Tunnel and the GPS starting saying, “recalculating, recalculating” because she had lost her signal!  Long story, short……..I found Preston!  I was never so glad to drive into that motel parking lot, praising and thanking God!

This journey with breast cancer may look very similar.  Faith is stepping out into the unknown, believing that God is there to lead us to the other side.  There may be some panicky voices from others, but I have to listen to His still, quiet voice.  God reminded me this morning that this journey of faith is like that of a small, trusting child confidently taking her daddy’s hand.  At this point, the ONLY thing that I can do is trust that God knows exactly what He is doing and where we are going.

 

Cindy

 

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  • Diane Coley says:

    Cindy,
    You have done it again!!! Blessed my socks off!!! When I should be blessing yours. You are a precious friend and praying for you daily!!! Ps 103: 1-5; 1.Praise the Lord,O my soul; ALL my inmost being, praise his holy name.2. Praise the Lord, O my soul, and FORGET NOT ALL his benefits- 3. who forgives all your sins and heals ALL you diseases, 4. who redeems your life from the pit and crowns you with love and compassion, 5, who satisfies your desires with good things. Be blessed today and know that you are loved.

  • Lynette says:

    I started the same journey two years ago. He is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow. No matter if the pet scan turns bright orange in places or is clear. The Lord is your rock and foundation. Praying for you!

  • joannna says:

    Praying for you on this journey

  • michelle says:

    I was so encouraged by you sharing your journey. Thank you…

  • Christine says:

    When I saw your title for this post, I thought of a license plate frame I saw. it said “Don’t follow me, I’m recalculating.” This made me laugh because I get lost when driving and without GPS, I’d never make it to my destination. The same thing happens with God in my life, if I do not listen to him I’m lost and end up at the wrong place. Great article, thank you Cindy for sharing your story.

  • Deborah says:

    He knows exactly where we are….I need to remember that more. Thank you for sharing this.

  • Kelly says:

    Praying for you on this journey.

  • Susan says:

    I am on a journey right now that I don’t want to be on, it was not one of my choosing. The heartache is overwhelming. I thank you for this post . . .one day when I was on my way home from work in tears, trying to trust God . . .I cried out . ..Lord, what do you want me to do?” very quietly I heard, II Chronicles 20:12 . . .hmmm . . what did that say? as soon as I got home, I opened my Bible and it said “Lord, we don’t know what to do – so we will look to You for help.” and, so I keep looking . .. .

    keeping you in my prayers. Thank you for your insight on this journey!

  • Vicci Mauldin says:

    Thank you for sharing Cindy. When we were in Arizona last year when my husband fell ill, I remember so many times saying to the Lord, “I trust you Lord, I trust you Lord.” That’s all I could say. The roller coaster ride of cancer is so ovewhelming at times and you have to reach out to God to make it through. God bless you as you continue on your journey with God. I ask in Jesus’ name, amen. Vicci 🙂

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